Tuesday, May 07, 2013
Like It's Her Birthday
This is actually an old photo from last year but the flower bed is not changed a whole lot this year; perhaps a bit more full. I suppose the same could be said of me on this anniversary of my birth. Although I try to resist the urge, birthdays always seem to find me a bit introspective and offer the perfect chance to beat up on myself a bit for not accomplishing what I think is enough. Why haven't I hiked the Grand Canyon yet?! Why haven't I finished the house yet?!! Why haven't I spent more time with my Mom?!! Why do I seem to have fewer friends every year?!!
And no, you don't have to tell me that I'm being ridiculous (I guess!). I've done a lot of things and been many places that a lot of people never get to see. Even to be able to "retire" at 45 and basically work as I please is a great accomplishment. I think it's mainly just the fact that I don't see a lot of the people anymore that I used to get to see. It makes you feel isolated. Makes me wonder if I even matter. Honestly...probably not, to more than a handful of people, but hey, that's life. I guess if I had really wanted things much different I would have found a way to have had a big family.
So, anyway...how did this turn into such a crappy, downer post?? Oh yeah,..my birthday. Today has been a nice day though. It has finally quit raining here and the sun has actually offered it's services. The chickens are very happy about all that. This evening Jack will take me out for some sushi and I think we are going to buy a few things to complete the kitchen, so that will all be fun! We have also completed a couple of projects on the house and I need to put that up for ya'll. So, life goes on.