Saturday, April 24, 2010

Dragon Queen

Alright, I've been tryin' to come up with some kind of great enlightening or informative post about some interesting subject or project but I'm coming up empty so ya'll are just going to get a rant instead. As you all my have guessed by now, I'm not one of those perpetually happy, morning-rising chipper folks that grin so much it makes you want to smack them. While I am generally happy and easy going, I sometimes succumb to just being damn grumpy and this is one of those times.
I thought ya'll might like the pics of the dragonflies though. They have returned in full force this spring, much to my delight. I counted 10 or more flying around this one flower bed the other afternoon and their increasing numbers seem to correspond to a DEcreasing number of deerflies, the spawn of the devil.

At any rate, back to my rant... I don't know if it's the half a dozen former work buddies of mine that have died recently or our increasingly unstable work situation or just the feelings of isolation that have me frustrated lately. Friday, two more of our guys got laid off. Hippie was one of them and to top that, his brother passed away on Tuesday. I felt so bad for him. And things are just not looking any better for our future. We are not getting any more work. I don't know if I'll make it to the end of this job and we're on an accelerated schedule at that. I need to just go ahead and retire from construction. My back hurts a lot of the time and my shoulders are sore this weekend from toting those big steel braces you saw holding the tilt panels up. I like my work and I also enjoy it because it affords me company, somebody to talk to, but I can only be friends with the guys to a certain extent, you know. I can't call them at night just to chat or whatever. Well, a couple of them I can but I don't really want to pursue that. I need a partner here. Hell, I need to get laid. And then afterwards I need him to rub my back. And no, that's not all that I want but hot damn, it's a big part. I mean honestly, life's too short to go without. I would love to have a decent man to care for and fuss over. But there's the rub; decent. Hard to come by. I get men looking for a mule to wait on them or those that just want to prove they are more man than me. Pfft! If I could take all my fave buddies from work and roll them up into one guy, one single guy, that would be great!! lol! Yeah, right.
And don't give me that crap about I need to get out more. I have tried, I assure you. I have tried all sorts of stuff and still do but when I get off work I don't exactly feel or look like going out scoping for guys. The steel toe boots are not a big draw for most men.
My guys did bring me some presents this week though. I got a stick and a fifth of some really good moonshine. I don't drink much but occasionally like a little whiskey or a beer. Hey, it was a pretty cool stick! No laughing. I have also received bones and rocks. They are such sweeties. Sometimes I have to watch what I say I like or would want though or I'll end up with a truckload.
Good Googlymooglies, I am fucked up. There is no where or no one that I completely fit in with. A little here and a little there but no where completely. Well, it's been that way all my life so why should it change now.
Oh, and to top everything off; I have been invited, by one of my great readers, to exhibit a piece of my pottery in a clay invitational in Berea, Kentucky and so last weekend when I started to work on something, my wheel decided it was time to screw up. Well, in my haste to fix it I kinda screwed it up more so now it is completely non-functional. Thankfully I can borrow Fred's to throw some stuff but it's going to be down to the wire. I'll get it done though, no matter what. This is a very nice honor to be asked and one I don't want to pass up.

So, I just had to get all that off my chest. I colored my hair today also. Was sick of looking at all that gray. It came out a little more blond than what I was hoping but, what the hell! No one will hardly see it anyway as I have a hardhat on most of the time when I'm out in public.

There is still a little bad weather hanging around but I think most of it is past and nothing of any significance here. I did think I heard a tree fall somewhere behind the house but it must have been up further in the woods.
Well, I know this post sucked but I'll be back to my normal, sweet, angelic self (snort!) soon! Hope everybody is having a good weekend.


Anonymous said...

Ifn I wasn't already spoken for and just ten years younger, I'd come up there and "fix" ya, then leave. So's ya wouldn't get disappointed.
Keep looking, there IS someone out there looking for you.
w/v = mersi (yes, mersi on me, please!!)

Woody said...

Did you tap into that shine before you wrote


edifice rex said...

Hey Furt! thanks for the sentiment sweetie; I appreciate it. ;)

Hey Woody! how'd ya know?! lol! maybe just a tad.

Rita said...

Thanks for being honest. I really want to understand and know what's going on in peoples lives. I think life is much harder right now than most are willing to admit. That's why there is so much anger everywhere. These are hard times. I am sure things will get better. I think people will reach out to one another with help over time. I hope those who know you will hear you and introduce you to a guy you'd like to spend time with. Get married and be the wife instead of having to try so hard at a guys job. Hey, they are built for the work they do and it's hard for them. No wonder you hurt and are at the end of your rope. Many prayers and blessings for you.

edifice rex said...

Hey Rita! well, even though I can do most all the work it IS harder on me and it's getting to me a little. And I've had lots of people introduce me to various others but things just never work out. Things will workout one day though, I hope.

Jenn said...

As a wise frog once said, It ain't easy being green.'

He's a pretty unique individual, too.

Does make things hard. But, being unique? I still think you're pretty amazing. Hang in there.

HermitJim said...

Just an old guy's opinion...but I think that maybe retiring is a good idea! As the old saying goes..."You'll know when the time is right!"

Have another "touch" of that shine, sit back and admire the new stick...and things will get better!

edifice rex said...

Hey Jenn! thanks! I will.

Hey Jim! well, a lot of the 'old guys' dont like to see me do that kind of work; not out of prejudice but just because most southern men are taught that women are to be taken care of and not to have to do such hard work. I think retirement is getting much closer for me at any rate. and yes, things will get better. thanks!!

Frugal Canadian Hermit said...

I'm just trying to think up something intellegent to say. lol.

edifice rex said...

Hey Mark! ah c'mon! I know you can come up with something! lol!